Just A Dude That Writes

Balsnce

2011-04-25T12:26:00.000-07:00

When you look into my eye's
What do you see
What I'm not
Or what I can be
I've been pushed passed insanity
I've climbed back to the top
People say how can this be
Down so long
I defied gravity
That's a law of nature
He can't break that
To many demons
He can't shake that
Been knocked been down to many times
He can't take that
But I've got heart
You can't fake that
Every obstacle past
Becomes easier then the last
I've been hit
Never knocked out
I came into this life with a purpose
And that won't change until I clock out

h

2011-04-23T09:16:00.000-07:00

With you I'm trying to find a balance
I'm not used to love
It's challenge
Not to give
But to receive
Trying to become what you need
Because I can't stand watching you leave
But when I look in the mirror
Start sweating hard to breath
I imagine your arms around me
All the pressure is relieved
Before you I didn't believe
With you, with out sex
Love was conceived
It's like my heart was missing
You looked in my eye's
And it was retrieved
I'm in love
No in between
Before you
Potential in myself
I had never seen
I'm sorry I caused all this trouble
Just know baby
I love you

What's Pain

2010-12-02T19:38:00.000-08:00

What's pain
Pain's alot of struggle
A little gain
Pain's wanting sun
All you get is clouds and rain
Pain's looking in a frame
Remembering everything she did to drive you insane
Pain's wanting change
But everything stays the same
Pain's wanting a clean slate
But it's hard getting out the stains
Pain's wanting fame
But no one knows your last name
Pain's wanting the weight off your chest
But you don't know if there is a big enough crane
Pain's Low self esteem
He thinks you're beautiful, But you still feel plain
I could on for pages
Pain affects you no matter the creed, color, and age
Just don't let your pain trap you in in a cage

Last Ledge

2010-11-28T13:35:00.000-08:00

Let it go
Life goes on
You've been fighting so long
Trying to find something to hold on to
Just hold on a little longer
I'll extend my hand
Together we'll grow stronger
Climb out that valley
Rise above the shadow of death
Our two minds together
Can past any test
Our two chests
Will never let us run out of breath
I'll wipe any tear off your cheek
Let you know your feelings of lonliness
Aren't unique
Now smile
Because the only way I'll let you fall
Is when I sweep you off your feet

..........

2010-11-08T14:28:00.000-08:00

Backs against the wall.
Gonna be a long night now.
But I won't back down
No matter how sexy you look
I your night gown
I asked you a question
Couldn't even get a sound
Why when I'm gone?
He's around
This isn't my sox hat I found
The fucked up part is
Last time I saw dude
HE said waddup
Gave me a pound
You say I'm never around
Even though I work 50 hours a week
I minds on you 168
When ever time I tried to talk
You said you were tired
Guess my words were a little late
Don't start crying
You don't deserve my pitty
No sorrow
Remember this face
Memorize this night
They're all you'll have tomorrow

Political Add

2010-10-23T13:38:00.000-07:00

An unholy terror
Consumes my every vision
Some stay extremely right
Others extremely left
I prefer the middle
I don't dance
When they're on the roof
Playing their fiddle
Shaping young minds
Like wood being wideld
Gay rights
Universal health care
Have you spent a moment out there
Add up the uneployments lines
From the across nation
They'd stretch from oakland to dc
And you swear you understand their frustration
Then you spend millions on your campaign
And we keep electing you ignorant bastards
It's a damn shame
Fuck Air Force one
I just call it snakes on a plane

Long answer to a simple question

2010-08-18T20:26:00.000-07:00

Daddy never taught me how to treaty a lady
But are you even a women?
Or a girl craving drinks.
Some attention.
For every two for one.
I begin to realize
You could put a man.
In a private recession
So drink up baby
Don't care about
Your dead beat ex's
Just want you on the dance floor
Acting crazy, and reckless
So I can forget about mine
Now it's closing time
You tell me perkins
Is your favorite place to dine
You me tell your favorite book is twilight
Can't believe this the highlight
Of my night
Then your proceed to tell me
How you've lived the high life
Well we have something in common
I grew up on Camels and high life
You say you don't get it
So I ask for the tab
We hop in the car
Should of taken a cab
As I drive the line's I'm dodging weaving
You say pull over
Open the door start heaving
Wipe your mouth
Tell me you've had a wonderful evening
Turn up your favortie song Tik Tok
Ask the arrangement's for sleeping
You say your apartment is tip top
It's just one more block
Now I got this on lock
We get there
As we go up the stairs
You start undressing with out a care
As you lay next to me
I realize I was love sick
I thought you were the remedy
You were straving for attention
I was your recipe
Get up, leave
And try to salvage what's left of me

Preaching

2010-08-13T00:24:00.000-07:00

I start every day

With father forgive me for I have sinned

The next sentence is where is do I begin

I tear up uasually grab a pen

The paper is my confrimation

The punching bag

For all my frustration

Every sentence

Takes me to

A different location

When I'm sick of the complications

I hit the pad

It's like a little vacation

The pledge lied

We're not one nation

Some people get to the front

While other's remain waitin

Thou shalt not hold false idols

Half my friends would sell there soul

For an affliction shirt

And a car title

What happened to thing's that are vital

Love, Friends, and Family

Can it be

That this generation has been driven

To insanity

More concerned with vanity

Then life's sanctity

Or am I just mad because I'm broke?

10

2010-08-10T21:10:00.000-07:00

1 more of 500 bail's I've made at the club
2 more wires I would have been done
3 more minutes I would been on my way
4 uncomfortable steps back
5 seconds of wondering where I am
1 deep pain in my chest
2 times I struggle for breath
3 times I almost crash to the floor
4 times this had happened before
5 was 1 to many
10 reasons I can't keep living like this

Ms. Right Or Ms. Right Now

2010-02-07T19:38:00.000-08:00

Excuse me Ms.
You look familiar
I think we may have met the other night
I was a little tipsy
I remember you were quite a sight
When you came and asked for a cigarette.
You lit it, Said hi my names Amanda
Whats your name I didn't get it yet??
Well my names one lucky man.
I see no ring

As the conversation continues
I think to myself
What brings an angel like you to this venue
Came for some beer
Now I'm enjoying laughs
With every smile
Now I'm thinking of how to aproach this
I want you to stay awhile
Have to remain focused
But these walls
I use them to block all emotion
These drinks help forget that a women like you has
Never graced me with her presence
Now the night comes to a close
Hug, kiss on the cheek
In my mind that moment we met
remains frozen
I know i could feel that way for you
But I think you might actually
Love me
A week later you stay on my mind
Your seeing someone else you say
But when I think about that night
All I can say is wow
I guessI have to let Ms. Right
Turn into Ms. Right now

One step at a TIME

2010-02-01T21:21:00.000-08:00

Whats a silver spoon
Never even seen a platter
I started life on the bottom rung
Kept climbing the latter
Won't stop at the rafters
Fuck the moon
I want what evers after
I used to fall at the sound of laughter
Now I rise to any occasion
To sweet rapture
In that moment
I capture
Happly ever after

solving

2010-01-19T18:06:00.000-08:00

What is it?
The one I never had?
Is it enough gold to drive me mad??
Enough Happiness so I'm not sad??
What is it?
This Thing I'll Always Want??
All The Jewerly And Cars To Flaunt??
Or something So my soul this ghost will no longer haunt?
What is it?
This Thing I need??
All the answers so i can live my life with ease??
Or somewhere to get this off my chest so i can finally Breath??
What is it?
This thing for wich i'll always yurn?
A place to rest my head until the skies turn??
A place to meditate so my head doesn't Burn??
What is this?
You
I got all this the second we kissed

Eye candy

2009-11-19T22:27:00.000-08:00

You're right baby I'm rough around the edge's
My pant's hang a little low
My hat's a little cocked
I smoke, I drink.
But as far as that goes
You're so glamorous
The finest linens line your body
But your best feature
Is that wrinkle in your nose
Your pouting face
When your losing
Is what I think about when I lay my head
So I'll start doing my hair
If you start to understand
If you don't do your hair
I won't notice or care

Napoleon Sydrome

2009-11-18T22:54:00.001-08:00

If told you how I felt
Would you except it
Would you walk away
Or understand the way I look at you
Is the way angel's are admired
The way goddess's are worshiped
The way you talk
Is the way ballads are created
Your sentence's are symphony's
You make my complications
Seem like like 1+1
But the equation for us
Is to complicated
Because I enjoy
Our time together
To much

2009-11-18T22:54:00.000-08:00

I may be a little rough around the edge's
I'm usually a loud mouth

Safe Radius

2009-10-08T21:21:00.000-07:00

Welcome to my world
Death doesn't concern me
Faced it to many time's
So if you are
Don't come near me
Path of self destruction
Everything I care about
Every loving relationship
Ceases to function
So pardon me my love
If I walk away
I will eventually feel the pain of losing you
I can't take that
Not today
Maybe another life
So go on leave
I don't blame you
You are forgiven
While I figure out how turn off the self destruct
I want you to keep living

Destination?????

2009-09-12T09:45:00.000-07:00

To say I never gave a fuck
Would be a lie
When you don't see the point
It's hard to try
When all you did was learn to survive
You don't know what to
When you find out your alive
They say you get three strikes
At this rate
I might need five
I keep looking back
Looking forward
I might not like were I arrive
Trying to find a balance
Between heaven and hell
Levitating Hoping I don't fry
Looking at the sky
Fuck it
Time to take off
Say goodbye to meritocracy
It's my turn to fly
And feel alive

Third block

2009-08-27T14:57:00.000-07:00

On the third block
Grab the cell phone
Sweaty and hot
Time to get home
Click on contacts
Highlight her name
Hit call
Three rings
Hey it's me leave a message
"Hey it's me, I'm sorry for what I did
I acted like a kid
You wanted a man
What I want you to understand
My arm feels naked
Without your hand
I'm walking through a waste land
I said those things
Out of anger
But your the first woman
I never said I can't wait to bang her
I miss you
Please call back"
A couple days go by
No call
Go out
Going to drink
Till I fall
Think about the fight
Why did I start this
Why was I so heartless
I apologized
But regardless
Now I'm alone at the bar
Two shots from darkness

2 Live's

2009-08-26T11:24:00.000-07:00

These pine tree's don't feel like the street lights I'm used to
The mud is softer then asphalt
No sirens make me a little un easy
Breathing fresh air
Makes me cough
No loud music
Just the crickets singing
Hearing my own thoughts
Is something strange
I'm used to beers
Talking shit with the boy's
Catching the latest game
Not big skies with stars

This concrete is to hard for you
More then one traffic light
Is one to many stops
You like music with a twang
These hard hitting beats
Are a little much
You wonder why people wear flat brims on there hat
You wonder if they've heard of a belt
And what does do work mean
These girls are little slutty for your taste
You're used to Porch swings looking over fields
The rooster waking you up
Not city lights blocking the stars

So let's meet half way
Between the city and the sticks

Lease on life

2009-08-23T19:29:00.001-07:00

Sleeping awake
Not too much I can't take
Bend never break
Death never a fear
Life scares me more
In death pain no longer exists
Anguish, nightmares no longer Breathe
The cowards way
Easier to leave
One to many tears on that sleave
Go sleep on it
Tomorrows a new day
New reason to believe

Levitation

2009-08-23T19:17:00.000-07:00

No stars

No clouds

So I can't blame them

With no obstacles

I remain stuck

With nothing holding on

I should fall

But I hover

Half way between

Heaven and hell

Sometimes I fall hard

But stop before the fires

Lift myself up

But to the the same place

Never higher

is this kevin

2009-08-15T19:24:00.000-07:00

Mike, a voice saidIs it Kevin, no it can't be he's dead
Kevin is that you"Yeah it's Kevin"
My heart skips a beat
I’ve never heard a voice so sweet
My eyes get teary
It’s hard to see clearly
I ask a question
Did you make it to heaven?"
I'm where the angels are,and if you need me I’m not far"
It’s so comforting to hear him
He was as close as kin
Most of all my best friend
Why'd you have to go, the pain it will never slow"
God had to make us strong again.
Don't cry I know it's hard to understand
"I know what happened, but I don't know the reason.
Please give me something I can believe in.
"That’s something that will be answered when you walk through that door.
I just came to say I’m in pain any more.
"I love you"
I love you too;
I'll see you at the gates when your life is through"
I wake up crying my heart pounding.His words are still resounding.I wipe the sweat from my face.For all his pain had been erased.
I hit my knees.
For god had finally given me peace.

The second

2009-08-12T22:14:00.000-07:00

Hit the second block
My face gets hot
Getting hard to walk
And as it gets hotter
I think to myself
How the fuck did those things come out of my mouth
Did I really say that to some mans daughter
I was pissed
Always driving
The drinks I bought her
No sex at first
From a 23 yearold man
Hell of an offer
Hell of gesture
But just waking up next to her
Was enough pleasure
Maybe I should call and tell her

The first block

2009-08-12T21:20:00.000-07:00

Wake up, my feet hit the pavement
The cigarette hit the lips
Gets wet....
Start walkin
You want too
I'm not in the mood for talkin
Yeah I said things I shouldn't
But you made promises
You said you keep
But when I found you wouldn't
Being with you I couldn't
No I won't back down
I won't apologize
A bitch like you
Can't take it
You usually swallow guy's
Just face it
My pride
You'll never taste it

The grove

2009-08-02T00:25:00.000-07:00

Some start there day with give us my daily bread
Most start their day with please let me duck the daily lead
We bitch about the house being a wreck
Most are just happy for a bed
Next time you order something
And complain
Ten other people
Scraped through dirt for scraps
After watching their entire family being slain
The fact that you bitch about a car
That shit makes me furious
I wanna to see you survive in a third world
I'm fucking curious
You with out ac, xbox, wireless, 3g
Are you fucking serious
You wouldn't last two hours
Fucking coward

A ghost

2009-07-23T22:58:00.000-07:00

Your beauty is a dream

I just woke up

Finding horror

In this love scene

Baby I've got demons

You may not see them

But they're as real as day and night

I have to make this right

There was this girl last night

Her beauty

Could give a wingless bird flight

A blind man sight

A dead man breath

A straight man go left

Nothin happened

Just some drinkin, converation, and laughin

But I left thinkin what could of been

But then you cross mind

Remembering all the times

Seeing that smile when I walked in

Give me a kiss on the cheek

We go down stairs

I fall asleep

Thinkin about calling her

On a late night creep

Dreaming of finger nails in my back

Biting my shoulder when you climax

Lay down my head hits the pillow case

Look up

It's you

But it's not your face

One

2009-07-23T22:44:00.000-07:00

One kid
On one curb
Cause his mom's drinking
Hit that one nerve
One tear
Wiped off with one sleve
He had one need
The world too give him one reson to believe
So now he has one knife
Too one wrist
Could only think of one way
To say he's sick of it

One girl
One moment off lust
One long line at the conveinence store
One man that doesn't answer his phone anymore
More then one person calling her a whore
One test
One more stress
One more reason too not wear that black dress
Now she's getting one crib
One rattle
One bib
But for one women
It's hard raising one kid

I'm just one kid
Trying too become one man
Trying too unite one family
Under one plan
One little brother
One more reason
Too make one last stand
One reason too fight
One friend gives me sight
One gives me light
One gives me a hug
One pen
One moment
One thought
One love

Just Another Day

2009-05-01T11:12:00.000-07:00